Alhamdulillah...

Salam and hello to all of you people...

currently I am having a rest in the hotel. Today, is my day four in Singapore. I would like to summarise about all I had and went through last few days.

---Flying off to Singapore at 8.00 am and arrived at Singapore around 10.45 am. Brunei embassy people was waiting for us with my name wrote on a piece of paper. We were asked to have a seat for a while they were arranging something. Once they done, we gave them a letter which was mainly for them. Then, after 10 mins, embassy driver drove us to Royal On Scotts Hotel.mm..the hotel is not bad at all. It is located around the Orchard Road, infront of Hyatt Hotel.

---Then, once we reached our room, we were having a rest before we started our first day of shopping. hehe...since the next day I will be admitted to Hospital and will be isolated in a room for a few days. I just shopped what I have targeted. I bought two trousers from Marks & Spencer, some Shasha's clothes,some bracelets and a handbag from OG. Thinking want to grab some handbags coming few days. Depends on my budget.hehe...We had our lunch at Delifrance located inside Paragon. mm...I crave for the potatoes but unfortunately it was not available at that time. So, I just ordered Chicken and Potato. mm...we went to Lucky Plaza to buy some 'murah' seluar for me.hehe...I want to buy more soon.nyaman dipakai yoh..

---We arrived at the hotel around 5+ish..then..I took my shower and have a rest. Because the next day, I will be admitted to the hospital.

---I woke up at 7.30 am and took my shower. The embassy people promised to fetch us up at 8.45 am. So, we have to be punctual as we reminded by the Ministry of Health from Brunei. So, reached at Singapore General Hospital around 9.00am and the embassy people was already waiting for us there. He brought us to the Oncology Department. We were waiting for almost an hour for my name to be called. The time came and I met Dr David. And he explained to me regarding about the treatment that I will be going through such as how many ml the radoiodine that I will be swallowing, not to get pregnant for this coming 6 months, I will be isolated ina room for few days, even after I will be discharged I cannot get closer, touch, kiss my daughter for three days since the radiation will still remain in my body eventhough the level is low. There are something that I have to aware. Before admitted, they took my blood just want ti check my clacium and my blood count. We were asked to go to the admission office tp arrange about my admission. I had to take my luch before 12 pm since I will be taking the medicine at 2 pm. We were asked to go to Ward 72 for my admission. My room number is 24. Then, we asked for their permission to had our lunch since we had 20 mins left before 12 pm. We were rushing and again we had our lunch at Delifrance. I had a Vegeterian Pizza,corn soup and a sausage croissants. I have to eat people. I didn't care about my diet at all at that time.

---We went back to my room and they gave us a short briefing what are the regulations after eating the medicine. A nurse remind me, after buang air besar and kecil..hehe...pasal inda tau dalam bahasa inggeris lah tu..hehe...I have to flush the toilet twice.This is due to everything came out from my body was radioactive. Almost at two, my hubby went back to the hotel and left me alone in that room. We were asked to be ready at 2 pm and we will be sent to the place in a group. There were five of us. mm...talking about the medicine, the taste was a bit salty. Mine was only a small dosage...we just have to drink using a straw and then goes with water. We were sent back to our room. We were asked not to talk too much for an hour after we had the medicine. Then, after an hour, we were allowed to eat and drink. I had an apple and grapes. What I heard from people before make me scared. They said my taste bud will be affected..which all the food I will eat will be tasteless. mm..people...now I start to believe myself.Some people experience make me scared and everything was set in our mind. If we think it that way, perhaps you will be going through they way they did.BUT to me, alhamdulillah...thank you to ALLAH, everything was ok. BUT the time I had my dinner, out of blues I was crying. Dunno why. I felt lonely and I miss my Shasha and my Sayang. They were always around me all these times. That time I start to realized, how important they are in my life. Even, when I type this out, I still can feel the same how I felt when I was alone in that room. I was eating and crying at the same time. Only ALLAH knows how I felt at that time. I MISS THEM SO MUCH. Even now, my tears start to fall again. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. Around 9+ish, my hubby called me up and I can hear my Shasha was calling me. I was crying again and again. I miss her so much. and people...I am crying now...I knew that I will not be seeing her for coming two days. To be frank, I dun want to go through this anymore. So, I have to be strong and can't wait to over this treatment. I slept in at 10+ish...

Today, I can start the reaction of the medicine inside my body. I started want to vomit once I smell the food. Luckily, they gave me the medicine just to avoid from vomitting. Just that I can't stand the smell of the food.I didn't touch my lunch at all. I just request for hot milo and crackers.I only had that for my lunch. Later on, my hubby and my bro in law cameto visit me and sent my Ayam Penyet for me. Nyaman kali ah....rather than makan yang makanan di hospital.As if like orang pregnant that cannot stand the smell of the food.mm...but alhamdulillah, i did not vomit. They were visiting me for 15 mins only, cannot more than that. I asked the nurse regarding about my discharge. The doctor said the chances for me to be discharged is 90%. I was glad to hear that.

We were asked to be ready at 8.30 am and then there will be amah to take us to the Oncology. My hubby came around 7.45 as he promised.hehe thanks Sayang. Once we reached there, we were asked to change and ready for the CT Scan. I was waiting for almost 45 mins for the scan since I was the second in our group to do it. mm..while waiting, I talked to a chinese guy (he is one from our group). He had this thyroid last 20 years ago, then now the cells was spread out to the lungs. and talked about this one guy from our group too. He is 56 years old. He went through the operation for 5 times , because the cells was spread out to his brain. and he have to go through 6 more operations.mm...kasian kan..I feel so lucky, sedangkan ada lagi orang yang bernasib kurang baik. He must be stronger to go through all these. I pray for him...Mudahan ya lakas baik, Amin. Time for my scanning...I went through it for almost 30 mins. Sangal jua punggung..then the person who incharged asked me why I kept sighing...hehe..I had to tell her that I had a back pain. Then, dibaginya bantal dibawah my kaki...ahh...then I start to feel comfort.hehe...she told me to wait...it should be done in 10 mins time. As soon as the scan was done, I changed my clothes and waiting to see my doctor. Menanti adalah sesuatu penyiksaan. Really people, I just dunno what I felt that time. For me, the purpose of the scan...discovered new things inside our body. BUT alhamdulillah, the result was ok. The radiation level in my body is getting low and the things is not spreading to my other organs. I was really glad and happy to hear that from him. My blood test result was also ok, my calcium is ok and my blood count ok. ALHAMDULILLAH. Now, I have nothing to worry anymore. I want to have enough rest and i have to make sure I will be fit and ready to work. Dr David gave MC till next Saturday.And it will be confirmed again by Dr Shafiq and I will be reported to him on Monday. Now, I feel so relieved. Everything is over, just that I need to have a frequent check up once I get back to Brunei.

We will be flying off back to Brunei this Sunday. mm... I will be updating again tommorow ppl Insya Allah. Now, I am using my bro-in-law's laptop for blogging.hehe...

I will upload some of our pictures here once I get back to Brunei...